This is a long post, but hear my out. As difficult as it is to say this, I would have to say that yesterday was probably one of the hardest days I’ve experienced in a long time. Not in a physical, but spiritual sense. I was scheduled to move to Los Angeles this morning via rental car. However, my original intention was to drive my own car out there. God had promised me a new car, which He will still come through on. I was expecting him to come through in my timing, and but he always comes through in His timing (Which is typically different than ours). It was probably a pride issue for one, because people knew that I was believing God for a car to go out to LA, and I didn’t want people to think, “Oh he just didn’t have enough faith, or God didn’t really promise him a car.” For naysayers, wait and see, and as the whole story unravels over the next few weeks and months, the whole story will be available regarding how God provided for me, and why I believed how I did. There is reasoning behind everything. (by the way, he has provided me with three cars before, so it’s
not a new trend)

I am now scheduled to fly out to LA on Thursday of this week. I am checking four bags and mailing a box out there. After looking over the whole situation and with the revelation of God, I have come to the conclusion that the decision is to fly out there, and fit as much of my things as possible into the bags I am checking. (since I don’t have a car that is capable of making the drive out there). Conveniently however, a specific airline has recently opened direct flights for the first time from Springfield to LA at very reasonable rates. I like to think it’s because I’m moving out there and God wants to make it easy to come back and visit friends and family.

Interestingly enough though, last week I believed that God wanted me to rent a car and drive out there, yet now I am flying. The question is, did I miss the timing upon reserving the car. I could have potentially reserved a car last week, but I was traveling back and forth between Springfield and the Lake of the Ozarks and I wanted to have time to stop by and look at the car I was renting to analyze whether or not I would be able to fit the all my stuff into the car (the cheapest one was like 640 bucks minimum plus extra insurance and gas). However, if I did end up renting a car, I realize that it would have been more difficult than expected to leave at the time intended, because the stuff I planned on grabbing from my parents house was a lot more disorganized than I remembered, so it really is best that I fly (other than not being able to visit my brother on the way out).

So there I am, last night (technically two nights, but when I started typing this, it had not reached 12:00 am), frustrated and uncertain what I’m going to do. And as my friend’s dad put it, “so you wanted to go back to Egypt, we’ve all been there”. Great analogy, many times we follow God and in a world sense it looks like we would have been better off earlier. When I wrote the previous post, I will be honest, I was pretty frustrated and stressed. As for yesterday being crazy, it was not just the rental car issue, that was just the frosting on top of the cake because I was already having a crazy day. I said I wasn’t going to let it get to me, and was like I’m just going to pray in the Spirit instead of getting flustered. It felt like the enemy was really trying hard to try to get me down and hinder me from going into God’s will. At one point I made some comments I wish I didn’t make regarding the whole situation. It wasn’t like I cursed God in a JOB sense, or denied Christ like Peter did, or anything even close to that, but it kind of felt like I did though as I fumed the whole dilemma to my brother. I have trusted in God all my life and it felt like at one point, I was trying to rely on myself instead of letting him take care of my needs and it was as if I was mad at God for getting me into this mess. I have no right to get mad at God, and I repented immediately afterward of such. But the thing was, I should have known better than to listen to the lies and stabs of the enemy,
after all, I never verbalize lies of the enemy.

Later that night my friends planned a good surprise party for me (though it wasn’t all a surprise), and they prayed over me and I had an awesome word of wisdom with translation spoken to me for like five minutes by my friends parent who happened to be in the dream from a few posts before. It was pretty intense and God set me straight regarding the whole situation and spiritual attack that was going on.

He said in summary that I was trying too hard to try to meet my needs and that I just needed to trust in him to provide. (I’m putting this in quotes, but it’s more like a mix between quotes, paraphrase, summary, as I did not have a recorder, but I will explain it the best I can. He said

“I know what you need and I can see the things that you can’t see, and that all of your needs are already out there waiting for your even if it doesn’t look like it at first. You need to let go of what you think you need and all the stuff you think you need, and just go out and trust me. We go in stages, and sometimes it’s time to crawl, and then we walk, and then we run. You are getting ready to run and as you step into my complete will for you, and because now you are allowing yourself to have to rely completely on me, I will provide for you in better ways than you can imagine. You need to stand, confessing thanksgiving victory, and take ground, and stand, confessing thanksgiving victory, and take ground, and not listen to the lies and deception of the enemy, but stand, with thanksgiving victory, and take ground, and then stand always with thanks giving victory, and take ground. YOU WILL HAVE OPPORTUNITIES TO QUIT, or you can stand, and take ground. You will have an opportunity to listen to the deception when it gets hard, but you must stand, and with thanksgiving victory, confessing the truth, and I will take you through this. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! We will have fun times together and even great experiences you didn’t even expect. You think big, but I think bigger ((*A word spoken over me a few years earlier included something like “I am looking for big thinkers, and I found one here,”)).

There was more, but I can’t really remember it. I remember the warning was about mid message however, which was what I needed to hear, because it was God setting me straight from all the horrible thinking I was experiencing earlier that day and allowing to creep in. Now that I am flying out, a bunch of the stuff I planned on taking I now have to get rid of… surprise surprise. I will keep you all posted. Be blessed everyone and thanks for taking an interest in what Gods doing in my life.